Tonight I realised that in 2 months, I will have finished my first day at music college in Glasgow.
I found out last Thursday that my appeal re. the tuition fee loan was successful, meaning I can accept my place. In fact, I just did - I had forgotten in all of the excitement over the last few days, that the closing date was August 1st.
I've handed my notice in at work, and currently everything feels very strange. I will be stopping full time work as I know it in 7 weeks, and even if I get a normal 9-5er after I finish college, that will be a minimum of 4 years away.
It has been a huge decision, and has taken a long time to make (even before the complications of finance made it even harder!). I've accepted that while life hasn't quite worked out as I'd wanted, that's no bad thing.
The strangest feeling of all, though, has been that I will be moving on, and at last I feel ready for that.
I haven't told my little harp pupils yet, or my Brownies, and this will be very hard indeed.
My racing friends are used to this statement as it was frequently uttered/typed, but I really am so excited I could go pop. I'm looking forward to starting a completely new life, a long way away geographically, musically and emotionally.
To quote a phrase much-used in recent weeks - Allez!!!